welp, i’m still searching for that “true love”. past relationships have NOT been at it’s best. i don’t know if it’s me … . or the boys. i have a trust issue, i’m extremelyyyyyy picky, and have a bad attitude for no reason sometimes (i’ll admit it). my guard is up so high that i can’t even see the…
I always thought if you really wanted something, you would do everything in your power to get it. But how do you know when to throw the towel in. People can only make themselves vulnerable so many times. I hate when people take advantage of others.
I hate when you tell me you love me…. (Honestly, you dont put people you love through hell) …I hate when you tell me theres no one but me… (Was I born yesterday why the fuck do all these random bitches keep popping up)… I hate when you tell me you miss me… (Thats only when you want something dont continue to use me)… I hate when you get mad at me… (Tomorrow is never promised to anyone)
How exactly do you know if someone is good for you? Everyday people constantly change and the person you thought you knew the best turns out to be faker than the rest. Trying to piece things back in place only becomes a thing of the future because of what happened in the past. No one is perfect but why is it so hard to forgive and move forward. I never ever said forget. I have this so called life of mine planned out but what happens when things dont go as planned, what happens when actors quit, and what happens when you just dont know whats in the next scene. I guess that just when shit gets real..
I think I am finally at peace with my relationship status. I cant continue to dwell on the past. I have to look forward to the future with me being successful and happy. God makes no mistakes and he has a plan for me. "If you love someone let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they dont, they never were."
I have really been trying to understand exactly where I went wrong. I am tired of crying and I wont continue to do it. I am better than this all. Its time to do things for myself. Loving myself flaws and all. :-) ALL SMILES HERE!